what if?

I lay here on my bed,
with whatifs in my head.
They make my head spin,
Me thinking whatif my whatifs win?

Whatif I have no friends?
Whatif I don’t make it to the end?
Whatif I fail in school?
Whatif everyone thinks i’m a fool?

Whatif people catch me drool?
Whatif I get kicked out of school?
Whatif people think that I’m weird?
Whatif I grow a beard?

Whatif I cry?
Whatif I never tell why?
Whatif I wake up only wearing one shoe?
Whatif all my whatifs come true?

by Deborah Garcia